LOL

the BEST our of IP

2007-05-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

some of you may be very familiar with what I'm trying to say
damn we lost to RJC in all the finals this year, everything
you know what, IP was supposed to "retain the CCA talents" in our own school and to allow the students to carry on with their passion so that they "get better at it"
yeah right
almost all the A division boys we got something like 4th?
what the hell lah I think IP made us all complacent
people still playing com every day after school, they indeed benefit form IP
with all that direct school admission shit, 4th? what a joke
prepare yourselves for more jokes when A level results are released next March
I'm really looking forward to it

ok I shall revive my blog

2007-04-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

this place had been rather dead since end of last year
too busy, or too lazy? nvm shall post more often here

jts, lolz not bad lah at least I had fun budden personally I would have preferred sakae sushi or chin huat live seafood.
the place where we had our meal, not bad. the bread, can let HDB use to build flats, the steak, might as well call it fried fats.
hopefully we can have another outing soon, the food not important. most importantly, must tell a lot of "war stories"

superman

2007-04-01T01:32:00.000+08:00

inspired by the name, that's how I entered the bodybuilding world
tonight, some 5 hours ago, that superman music was played for me, for me alone, in a majestic auditorium
and I posed to it
it was my first free-posing
and I got 4th

I was thrashed bad in muscle war
I may not have gotten over it
but now there is no need to
because what bodybuilding has given me
far exceeds what the trophy or glory mean to me
to me, bodybuilding shaped my body, as well as my character, and not forget my heart
winning or losing doesn't mean too much to me now
because in the process of pursuing that dream, I've won everything

holiday training for the ranger boy

2006-11-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

here's how a typical day goes

0600-0700 -> wake up, do aerobics for 30-60 minutes, cool down plus stretching
0700-0710 -> wash up
0710-0730 -> meal 1 {3 eggs with yolk, 100g cooked oatmeal, 200g chicken meat}
0730-0930 -> mug, mug
0930-0915 -> meal 2 {4 slices wholemeal, 3 slices ham, 1-2 slices cheese}
0915-0930 -> break
0930-1130 -> mug, mug, and cups {yummy protein shake at 1030}
1130-1145 -> break
1145-1200 -> meal 3 {4 slices wholemeal, 3 slices ham, 1-2 slices cheese}
1200-1600 -> workout (time for travel and wash up included) {meal 4, post-workout supplementation: 35g ON whey, 9g amino acid, 60g dextrose[D-glucose]}
1600-1800 -> mug, mug
1800-1900 -> slack for a while, get sister back from school, dinner {depends on what mom cooks, will get a shake if mom cooks unhealthy meal}
1900-2100 -> mug, mug
2100-2200 -> wash up, prepare the stuff for next day
2200 onwards, will try to sleep by 2200

the army goes shooting

2006-10-10T19:53:00.000+08:00

last friday, the rangers from the mighty prestigious 7B army went shooting at bukit timah rifle range
we took turns to take down orange flying discs of diameter approximately 10cm with our 24mm rounds, each containing 300 deadly pellets
marksmen of the day goes to Captain Wolf and Kaidon who has been promoted to 2Lt.
each returned with at least a couple of kills and some clay discs as souvenirs

30 之最

2006-09-28T19:37:00.000+08:00

yay... 3 down, 2 more to go! cleared my chemistry paper today, damn song, all on organic chem! haha heng arh I studied a lot of organic chem, hopefully can do well this time.
damn, I got like 26.5/80 for my block test, and after putting in a lil effort I got 25/35 for the following lecture test. why can' I just be a mugger and put in all my effort to study?
wells. I thought of something pretty random, 30之最！
1 最爱的食物：ham and cheese! high 5 man!
2 最爱的运动：健身 there's no other sport in this world man
3 最爱的女人：母亲大人
4 最爱的女孩：妹妹
5 最喜欢的TV Serial: 小宝与康熙
6 最信任的人：魏来
7 最崇拜的athlete: Michael Johnson
8 最心怀感激的人：邱老师
9 最好的朋友：erh... 我一视同仁啦
10 最喜欢的休闲：围棋
11 最崇拜的演员：Sylvester Stallone
12 最常说的一句话：Use your brain can?
13 最讨厌的人：伪人
14 最喜欢的电影：Independence Day or Rocky III
15 最喜欢的歌：倔强（中文） This Love （英文）
16 最难忘的一件事：被车撞出去六七米远，鲜血喷个不停 =S
17 最喜欢的Manga: 铁拳小子
18 最喜欢的Anime: ヒカルの碁
19 最想去的地方：北京、Vancouver
20 最喜欢的一个字：忍
21 最喜欢的两个字：魏来
22 最喜欢的三个字：邪无思
23 最喜欢的三个四个字：自强不息、深奥幽玄、得心应手
24 最喜欢的水果：西瓜
25 最喜欢的地方：我的房间
26 最怪的习惯：喜欢在紧要关头做一些莫名奇妙的事，例如我昨天才刚刚把房间的家具乾坤大挪移了一番，然后玩了俩钟头的AOE III, that game rocks man! tuck tuck tuck!
27 最自信的优点：聪明、悟性好、上进
28 最不自信的缺点：倔强、傲慢、冷酷
29 最自信的body part: lattisimus dorsi, trapezius
30 最不自信的body part: pectoralis major... na bei there's nothing there, just fats

hail to the mighty army

2006-09-21T19:16:00.000+08:00

hail to the 7B army, the strongest army in school
consist of elite members, well trained in CHS to attain brutal killing techniques
armed with nothing, but one common goal
annihilate the world of germs, kill rats who spread these germs
our aim, achieve a world free of rats, free of LJ

here is a list of members

Private - kaidon
Corporal - teeteehoww
Lance Corporal - mossad
Second Seargent - falcon
Master Seargent - trigger
Lieutenant - rabbit
Captain - T-Rex

to all rats out there, prepare for war, prepare to die

yay this is good

2006-09-15T19:04:00.000+08:00

haha... I can't expect myself to feel so good now after all the minor mishaps that happened to me recently
firstly, I got this sickening alcoholic poisoning. I guess my body's tolerance for alcohol is not built up yet. at siping's birthday party her cousin kept making cocktail and I just kept gulping down as if it is water. alone I finished at least half a bottle I think. then the effect came soon, the skin all over my body got swollen and red and felt super itchy. took almost a week to recover
following that, when I'm like recovered from that poisoning already, I had this gum infection. the whole left cheek gena swollen like crap and I couldn't sleep without taking painkillers. I hate myself for relying on that stuff, it's like I'm killing my natural resistance for pain.
then, school re-opens, damn sick, I feel quite stressed up. the week passed and I felt like a walking dead. today's friday, after school I went to westmall with jing kang and kenneth to fill our stomachs before going home. I walked into that comics connection with the least of hope and asked the person at the counter if he sells rubik's cubes and to my greatest delight he still has one cube left. I bought it without giving a thought, haha... have been waiting for this day for a long time! but yucks it cost 18 bucks...

and yeah, that's sufficient to cheer me up :D so now you know how much I love this toy yeah

ranger boy

2006-09-08T18:03:00.000+08:00

recently I'm seriously looking into an army career
I dreamed of being an elite ranger since young, ye know, doing all those cool stuff
and if I sign on as an officer, many years are saved, effectively I start working from the day I step into my university and receive my full salary
and the best part is, I'll probably enjoy what I do as an officer as much as I enjoy pumping in the gym or thrashing it out on the goban
many friends say I'm limiting myself

maybe
actually, I feel somewhat the same way
I mean
there are many things that I like to do
not just the physical stuff
being a hero is not my sole dream
I dreamed of starting up my own business and creating jobs for hundres and thousands of people
I dreamed of being the next warren buffette or george soros, who rob the "rich" in the stock market to give the "poor" (through their foundations)
and there are just hundreds more inspiring stories that make me hopeful and excited
so... why army? good question, I can't give a certain answer for now. but, I have 1 more year to either convince myself or draft out a second plan

as for now, gotta start working by getting better results in school
when I say better I don't mean better than what I used to get, that's not good enough
better means better than most of the peeps in school
and that's just gonna require a hell of hardwork and discipline
ye know what, I think it's totally justifiable to judge one's capability based on his academic results
it's a direct test of his desire to fight for his own survival
this fighting spirit is necessary for success in no matter what he does in the future

damn... it's just barely a year more. then what? go on and be a ranger hero. and then? get married? have some kids? and then what? nothing I do will ever bring back my adolescence. I recall a poem written by 曹操 and there's a line that goes 壮士暮年,雄心不已
shit I ponder too much about the past... but come to think of it, who won't, when they realise that they are gonna lose something they treasured for 18 damn years?
you see, we all are trying to get ourselves deeply involved in something so that we enjoy that thing we do, we enjoy ourselves, and thus forgetting the pain that we are going through, the troubles that pinch us on the ass every other minute. when we get sick of one thing, when that thing we do no longer satisfy this need, we dump it.
the one smart ass who clings to one thing for life and enjoys doing it throughout will be king. for now, I'm gonna cling on to mugging, it's not really what I like, though I can find the joy in it.

in life you do two things
1. things you like to do
2. things that you should do
in order to succeed
you need to have a balance of the 2, and sometimes even sacrifice the things that you really enjoy doing
this way, you can succeed in life
but you won't be outstanding
you won't even be recorded in the history book
truly great people just do one thing
1. things that they really like to do
look at all the magnificent people
bill gates, warren buffette, michael jordon, michael johnson...
I'm sure at times they'll feel what they do was just bullshit, and they should quit at that one damn second and never think about it again
but they never quit for good
they take a break
so that they have strength to go even further
so that they feel even more thirsty for looks of admiration from everyone else

damn, why am I doing GP now?

live with no regrets
die full of satisfaction

加油吧，臭小子！

tempest

2006-08-10T20:50:00.000+08:00

7 weeks left till promos
12 weeks left till PW presentation
5 months left till NUS muscle war

gotta handle these simultaneously

frankly speaking, I have confidence in none of them
especially when I had 3 Us for blocks, AE for EOM draft and gave the national youth bodybuilding championships a miss
I'm still uncertain
there's a tempest in me, denying me from tranquility
deflecting me from my path

yeah it's kinda great now, this feeling
I do a lot of mugging, I train like shit, see and feel the growth in me
I feel the sense of satisfaction, life's very fulfilling
but
I don't feel happy
neither am I sad
it's like all my emotions being suppressed

I feel driven, and focused
the desire to succeed engulfs me, and numbs all other desires
I badly want that scholarship
and that trophy
and that ranger badge
eye of the tiger, shall be my fortune, always

my world loves me
my family loves me
my friends love me
and I love myself
disappointment is not what I use, to repay love

went the distance now I'm back on my feet

2006-07-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

ok... let me begin by acknoledging some facts
I acknowledge that wei lai to date has yet to make any significant achievements in any aspect
I acknowledge that wei lai still has not succeeded in rectifying his own bad habits
I acknowledge that wei lai had been extremely complacent and egocentric that he's beeb blinded by his own ignorance
I acknowledge that wei lai lacks the discipline to do the things he promises himself
I acknowledge that wei lai is a NATO person (no action, talk only)
I acknowledge that wei lai used to be me

a fresh start for myself
I got myself a new set of rules, new direction, new passion, new mindset, and a new name
I'm to be known as Nathaniel

I always disliked people who hurt or annoy me in one way or another
I wanted to pull them over and do some war
I realise, that I don't have the right to feel that way, it's not even justified
there is one who hurt me most badly
I left his actions and decisions unchallenged
wanna beat someone? he'd be 1st on the list.

I pulled myself outta action
so that I could observe and judge what was wrong
I witnessed how bad habits hurt my dreams like poison
I witnessed how such great dreams can lead to so little work done

I am more certain than ever that I'm going the right path, more determined than ever to respect my decision with all my strength
made vows, set rules, now it's time to make sure I follow them

struggle 挣扎

2006-06-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

我每天都在挣扎着
all this while, I'm struggling just to get by each day...

挣扎...
what would be the picture in your head when you see such a word?
I see the cliff that we climbed in sabah, after losing our way...
I see the leg press carriage loaded. 6 a side...
I see the stupid mathematical induction and partial fraction shit...
I see salty chicken and sand-like creatine powder...

every day, every moment
I struggle just to finish one thing, so that I'll be faced with another struggle
I worry about everything
I worry about my school work, I worry about my progress in gym, I worry about other CCA workload, I worry for my future
and I struggle
to find a way to appease my mind of these worries

to be true, I'm not really a tough person, though I may look like one
I know I look as if I've got no feelings, but I am emotional
I feel like crying almost everyday, I feel like a loser in most of the things I do right now... I've never felt like this before, I'm really stuck in a shithole
dark, lurid, scary, alone.

yeah... I do have a lot of passion... I have a lot perseverence.
but they are faced with setbacks, denials, confusions, frustrations, fear...
they are forced to compromise...
I'm sorry
I'm really sorry
they are not what they used to be
the joy in doing all these things have evolved into something called burden, responsibility, destiny, whatever crap you call it
the passion, no longer pure, no longer naive, no longer extravagant.
the perserverence, no longer firm, no longer certain, no longer burning.
I'm sorry
I apologise

why am I being such a slave? why am I in such a discomfiture?
what's wrong with the world
what's wrong with me
I feel helpless
I feel useless
I'm just a slave of my own burdens

I watched
helplessly
there was nothing I could do
really
as one by one, the once vibrant but now wan angels of my ego and confidence
savaged by grisly demons
I have done what I could, maybe not my best, but what I was willing and able to give

I've lost the battle this time...
but I must win the war
bye for now
but D-day's coming
cya guys
I'm going hunting
when I'm back
you all shall be defeated
I'll pwn all
I'll bring back my old friend
his name is Passion
good-bye

we are the champs =)

2006-06-06T20:07:00.000+08:00

yay... lanke cup and qiuping cup over... we are triple champ man, ji shiok yi xia... personally I got 5th, was very lucky though... during the 5th and 6th game I was losing like mad lah... then jia hui time going to use up liao so he a bit careless then I killed his one big piece. as for rong yao, his time was using up also, then I killed one piece also, but he still winning, but somehow he resigned, maybe he's too nervous and frustrated... in a nutshell, it was sheer luck :P
si qing and zhang xiang got 1st and 2nd respectively, I sort of expected that... si qing too pro liao lah... I was winning quite a lot for the game against him but in the end he still won, very tough opponent sia... oh yah last game I played xu dong, I miscalculated the situation and played pretty badly since mid game, then in the end lost about 10moku... then after counting right, got this RJC guy asked another RJC next to the table "eh who win who win?" "xu dong" "YES! YAY! YAY XU DONG WIN! YAY!" then I was like wtf... but couldn't be bothered with him liao lah I'm not the one who's so particular about winning or losing on the goban anymore... prize presentation after that game... HCI dominated the top 3 for lower sec category, the qiu ping cup siong hwai got individual champ, then come lanke cup, almost everybody got a trophy... haha... this year, we are triple champ! how satisfying ^^

seeing is believing-muscle tear

2006-05-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

lolz... wtf I just got a muscle tear right in the middle of my abs...
I used to think that muscle tear is just a terminology for weariness or fatigue... but today I tore it right in the middle of my abs, and I saw it tear. yeah, so now, from 8 pieces, become 10 pieces. damn gross, not pain, but very scary lah... now dunno what to do with my abs lor, dun dare to do any training for it =S
went world book fair to promote the 30voices audio book. total sales of $1000+ in just 4 hours! diao... wish I could keep those cash, geez...
yay weiqi nationals on saturday and sunday... HCI stands good chance. we have never won the lanke challenge cup before, if we do this year, then we've created history =D and I would proudly be the captain of the history-making dream team. I think if I don't do too badly we would win lor, the first 2 boards damn steady surely top 3 one lah, but me, haiz... don't say anything liao lah, go train bah >.<

my happy ending

2006-05-25T18:02:00.000+08:00

phew... it all happened so quickly...
I hate the thought of having to wake up from the sweetest dream of my life
but, it was no point holding on to it
just wanna say that, thank you for the wonderful memories that I can bring along with me on the journey of life =)
I will certainly not forget you and the time we had
hope this doesn't hurt our friendship...
friends forever! =p

烂柯

2006-05-21T11:43:00.000+08:00

烂柯杯
一个我想了好久好久的比赛
记得去年，老师不让我参加烂柯杯，而让我参加楸枰杯，跟自己人自相残杀，比赛的成绩差强人意，我屈居第七
去年，NYP在夺得烂柯杯之前，和我们较量过
17-3
我们只输掉了三盘
但是却无法参加烂柯杯
后来，在世界青少年围棋选拔赛中，我把赢棋送出去，将代表权拱手送人
我最后的城池，被无情地摧残
我已经无法
在棋盘上
证明我的存在，证明我的个性，证明我的未来
那天起，我便对围棋心灰意冷，不再对围棋留恋，心里也没有了抓起棋子便能感到的喜悦
棋盘上
棋子上
棋罐上
积了一层讨厌的灰
跟我心中的阴影一样，抹不掉，更不想去抹

也不知过了多久
也不只是什么原因
不冷却的心，再次融化，我再次找到新的火种
但是，我的心，无法再次燃烧
我只能说，我对这次的烂柯杯充满了期待
因为，
这一次，我将会得到一个我可以接受的结果
这一次，我不会流下同样的眼泪
回首一算
这一次，我将为第28次比赛、第23个奖杯、第五个长年杯、第一个无上荣誉，再次挥动那锈味呛鼻的刀，那把我一直以来当做精神支柱的刀
刀，是不一样的刀
手，也不再是当年的手
但是，战斗的理由
百年不变
我要赢
我要华中赢

感谢
我所追随的
追随我的
所有战友
让我们一起面对这场烂柯之战
我们的时代
我们一起拥有

看前面黑洞洞
定是那贼巢穴
待俺冲上前去
杀他个
干-干-净-净！

despos from hong kong

2006-05-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

wha laoz... to date, I've been added on MSN by more than a dozen hong kong despos, that was since sunday! wha lao despo freaks... they all found my contact from match.com or some crap and added me and started talking cantonese... WTF lah got one think I girl some more... this match.com is disturbing my life, intruding my bloody privacy!!!! crap... I hope someone sue them soon or it gets hacked by some pro hackers... haiz... stupid despo freaks, deprived lonely idiots... no comments about them liao...
gays/despos/idiots aside, today's training was rather pleasant... got a hang at a new exercise which is the single hand seated row... it's pretty effective for the traps... but the lattisimus dorsi workout was very screwed, thought I could substitute pullover for a pulldown but it turned out that pullover required lots of triceps involvement and I had just worn my triceps out yesterday so I couldn't finish the training =( but still, I have to say that I'm quite happy with the training today... was a pretty satisfying one ^^

long time no see

2006-05-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

lolz... very long time never blog liao... some last year or something lah, on friendster blog :P so slack
great, this term's gonna be over soon. been failing every single subject, even GP! got 16/50 for compre and 23/50 for compo, though I thought it was quite well written. wha laoz, used to handle studies very easily one lor... haha... nvm, quote from MacArthur, "I shall return"... can make good use of the June buffer period to mug hard
been very lazy these days, can't even be bothered to prepare my own meals, took sick carbo for breakfast and lunch, luckily mom cooked some meat for dinner... training officially resumes tml, still feeling pretty weak, guess I'll have ter do some hunting for aspirations right now... competition's in august, I've bet all my life on it. in order to train, I was reluctant to join research programmes and attachments and so many things... in order to train, I'm breaking myself all the time... in order to train, I reach home at 7 everyday... in order to train, I become anti-social and unapproachable... in order to train, I've neglected so many things... if I don't get back the right mindset before it's too late, this is gonna haunt me for life, I'm gonna hate myself until I die
next week last week of school! haha... looking forward to taking a good break... can go for camp and archery after that, have a good break, then settle down for training and studies =)

New Blog

2006-05-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

yay got a new blog