7 weeks left till promos
12 weeks left till PW presentation
5 months left till NUS muscle war
gotta handle these simultaneously
frankly speaking, I have confidence in none of them
especially when I had 3 Us for blocks, AE for EOM draft and gave the national youth bodybuilding championships a miss
I'm still uncertain
there's a tempest in me, denying me from tranquility
deflecting me from my path
yeah it's kinda great now, this feeling
I do a lot of mugging, I train like shit, see and feel the growth in me
I feel the sense of satisfaction, life's very fulfilling
but
I don't feel happy
neither am I sad
it's like all my emotions being suppressed
I feel driven, and focused
the desire to succeed engulfs me, and numbs all other desires
I badly want that scholarship
and that trophy
and that ranger badge
eye of the tiger, shall be my fortune, always
my world loves me
my family loves me
my friends love me
and I love myself
disappointment is not what I use, to repay love
mirai
at the top of the world.
8:50 PM
