recently I'm seriously looking into an army career
I dreamed of being an elite ranger since young, ye know, doing all those cool stuff
and if I sign on as an officer, many years are saved, effectively I start working from the day I step into my university and receive my full salary
and the best part is, I'll probably enjoy what I do as an officer as much as I enjoy pumping in the gym or thrashing it out on the goban
many friends say I'm limiting myself
maybe
actually, I feel somewhat the same way
I mean
there are many things that I like to do
not just the physical stuff
being a hero is not my sole dream
I dreamed of starting up my own business and creating jobs for hundres and thousands of people
I dreamed of being the next warren buffette or george soros, who rob the "rich" in the stock market to give the "poor" (through their foundations)
and there are just hundreds more inspiring stories that make me hopeful and excited
so... why army? good question, I can't give a certain answer for now. but, I have 1 more year to either convince myself or draft out a second plan
as for now, gotta start working by getting better results in school
when I say better I don't mean better than what I used to get, that's not good enough
better means better than most of the peeps in school
and that's just gonna require a hell of hardwork and discipline
ye know what, I think it's totally justifiable to judge one's capability based on his academic results
it's a direct test of his desire to fight for his own survival
this fighting spirit is necessary for success in no matter what he does in the future
damn... it's just barely a year more. then what? go on and be a ranger hero. and then? get married? have some kids? and then what? nothing I do will ever bring back my adolescence. I recall a poem written by 曹操 and there's a line that goes 壮士暮年,雄心不已
shit I ponder too much about the past... but come to think of it, who won't, when they realise that they are gonna lose something they treasured for 18 damn years?
you see, we all are trying to get ourselves deeply involved in something so that we enjoy that thing we do, we enjoy ourselves, and thus forgetting the pain that we are going through, the troubles that pinch us on the ass every other minute. when we get sick of one thing, when that thing we do no longer satisfy this need, we dump it.
the one smart ass who clings to one thing for life and enjoys doing it throughout will be king. for now, I'm gonna cling on to mugging, it's not really what I like, though I can find the joy in it.
in life you do two things
1. things you like to do
2. things that you should do
in order to succeed
you need to have a balance of the 2, and sometimes even sacrifice the things that you really enjoy doing
this way, you can succeed in life
but you won't be outstanding
you won't even be recorded in the history book
truly great people just do one thing
1. things that they really like to do
look at all the magnificent people
bill gates, warren buffette, michael jordon, michael johnson...
I'm sure at times they'll feel what they do was just bullshit, and they should quit at that one damn second and never think about it again
but they never quit for good
they take a break
so that they have strength to go even further
so that they feel even more thirsty for looks of admiration from everyone else
damn, why am I doing GP now?
live with no regrets
die full of satisfaction
加油吧，臭小子！
mirai
at the top of the world.
6:03 PM
